My heart is heavy with more concerns than it knows what to do with.  A friend reminded me recently that I must have patience with the process. I just wish there were only one process occurring right now that I needed patience for.

Friends laughter fills the porch outside and for numerous reasons I can't bring myself to go outside and join in. Laughter doesn't cover the sadness these days.  I am peaceful in my sorrow, which is, for me, comforting.  Beacuse when your peaceful in your sorrow at least you know its where you should be. 

Author Victor Frankl wrote about finding meaning in suffering. His words come to mind often these days. “If there is a meaning in life at all, then there must be a meaning in suffering.  Suffering is an ineradicable part of life, even as fate and death.  Without suffering and death human life cannot be complete.” - Mans Search For Meaning

Wendall Berry also talks about suffering. Its in a different context, but he talks about the work and sweat that goes into plowing a field. Paraphrasing, he says that eating the food wouldnt be as great had you not suffered through the work of growing it. His parable I believe to be an accurate and valid point to all suffering. When joy comes, it will be more grand because I will have seen that joy through from start to finish... with all the ups and downs.


my triumph will be greater.
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